December 18, 2010 · Comments Off
As an Author, Life Coach, BPD/Mental Health Coach, I know first-hand that recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder is very possible because I recovered from BPD in 1995. I also coach many clients with BPD that are in the active process of recovery now. I know what recovery from BPD is, means, looks like, feels like, and what it entails because I have been through it. And, an important point I want to stress for you to think about today, if you have BPD, is that when I recovered in 1995 – which was an unfolding process over eight years that culminated in recovery as the result of a 7... [Read the full story]
Fragments of Wholeness
October 15, 2010 · Comments Off
At times we seem so close, the hugs, the laughter, moments of wonder. At times I feel I know you, I see you clearly, I recognize all I am as I hold space for your hurt. Quickly though it all can change, storms without name, pain without reason. Carried off into the distance, I barely follow. Running on to your hiding places, you leave crumbs behind. Silently you scream, Loudly you are quiet, nothing makes the least bit of sense. Like the girl who falls into a looking glass, A soul filled with beauty all covered in poison. I wait for you in the darkness, I have your light. Remember, you asked... [Read the full story]
August 31, 2011 · Comments Off
Most of the people I’m aware of with BPD have been subject to physical, verbal, or sexual abuse. As far as I know, I haven’t been subject to any of those things, so I’ve often wondered what environmental factors contributed to me developing the disorder. Recently, I’ve been piecing together memories of the invalidation I’ve suffered, which is one predictor of BPD. Today, I learned a little bit more about another BPD predictor I have: ineffective parenting in infancy. I’ve known for some time there were several factors working against my parents raising me successfully.... [Read the full story]
May 19, 2010 · Comments Off
Borderline Personality Disorder, rage and work just don’t mix so I’ve come to discover. Last month I got fired again. I can’t even count how many times I’ve been fired in the last 10 years. Failure I’m used to. Man, if I ever have lasting success, not that would be strange. That wouldn’t make sense. I’d never trust that. That would piss me off more than getting fired pisses me off. This time, when my boss fired me, it was as he put it, “Because you have a negative attitude and you are hostile with your co-workers.” He also continued on to say... [Read the full story]
New To BPD
June 17, 2010 · Comments Off
Ever feel like everyone knows something that you don’t? Ever want to just be the fly on the wall? I feel like I’ve spent 40% of the last few years just being puzzled about what others are thinking, saying, or implying about me or my work. Someone once told me that other people are just as occupied with themselves as I was about what they thought about me. To a normal mind, it sounds like I’m conceited, narcissistic, or just need more to do. Right? However, to those with Borderline Personality Disorder, we know that we invest so much in trying to have healthy relationships with... [Read the full story]
Most of the people I’m aware of with BPD have been subject to physical, verbal, or sexual abuse. As far as I know, I haven’t been subject to any of those things, so I’ve often wondered what environmental factors contributed to me developing the disorder. Recently, I’ve been piecing together...[Continue reading: Borderline Bastard]
One of the symptoms of borderline personality disorder I have traditionally displayed the most is a series of intense, unstable, interpersonal relationships. In my case, these relationships have been devastating for me, what a therapist might call toxic. Through introspection, learning, and sheer force of will, I’m...[Continue reading: Goodbye, Kato]
This week I started listening to the audiobook version of Rachel Reiland’s “Get Me Out Of Here.” It’s the story of a woman trying to recover from borderline personality disorder through intensive psychotherapy, including several stints in a hospital psychiatric ward. While my experience is nowhere...[Continue reading: Adult Me And My Inner Child]
I’ve seen many papers, articles, and blogs about the deep emotional pain and other severe symptoms of borderline personality disorder. I’ve seen little about the less intense but more annoying aspects of having and managing BPD, like confusion about identity and trying to hide the disorder. Those of us...[Continue reading: Minor issues, major annoyance]
Parlez-vous francais? Moi, oui. I’m conversational in French and can read it well enough to follow a book or newspaper. I also suffer from borderline personality disorder. Does that make me a bilingual borderline? Fortunately, no. There are many aspects to BPD. Some of the ones that affect me most are a sense...[Continue reading: I’m no Bilingual Borderline]
Recently, through hours of coaching and introspection, I have identified a pattern in my life that will be familar to people with borderline personality disorder: a string of intense toxic relationships, each of which ruptures in the end. Long before I knew what BPD was, or that I was going through this repetition...[Continue reading: Searching for “The One”]
Suffering from borderline personality disorder, I often feel broken, flawed, and less than whole. Intellectually, I know I need to integrate the parts of my fragmented personality to become whole. But, emotionally, I still feel as though I want and need someone else to complete me. In the past year, I’ve met...[Continue reading: My BPD and The Three Floutists]
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