A.J. Mahari’s Borderline Diary – My Borderline Years – Mirror Without Reflection – Invisibility’s Painful Perfection
A.J. Mahari in a excerpt from her work in therapy – the therapy group that she was in when she recovered from Borderline Personality Disorder, 15 years ago. Okay so here I am again writing stuff down. Remembering so much stuff. It’s all bad stuff. It’s all stuff that hurts. I am learning so much in therapy. So much I just never knew before. Never understood before. Never could have withstood before. Can I bear it now, really? Will I get through this pain? Really? I don’t know why I saw my mother last night. What a useless visit and conversation. What a pain. It still pisses me off beyond description only now I don’t just feel the rage there are also tears. Tears of a little girl. I was that little girl seeing my mother’s face. A face, a mirror without reflection. A blank slate most of the time. An unhappy and often rather blank stare on a face that definitely hated me the more she saw herself in me.
Where It All Began Again – Excerpt A.J. Mahari’s BPD Memoir
A.J. Mahari first heard those three words, Borderline Personality Disorder, in the dark ages of “treatment”, in 1975. At a time when most mental health professionals deemed Borderline Personality Disorder untreatable and spared little time in banishing those diagnosed with it. Borderline Personality Disorder were three key words that would profoundly effect her life that, at [...]
Borderline Personality and Hope – Perfect Speed Is Just Being There
Borderline Personality Disorder is a formidale challenge labelled a pathology that essentially means, if you have it, you are a human being who has been wounded and who is emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually out of balance. Finding hope is an act of faith. A surrender. It is radically accepting what is one moment at a time. Trusting that in each moment your perfect speed is just being there. Being in your there as fully present to it as you can be. Life Coach and BPD Coach, A.J. Mahari has a new episode in her BPD Inside Out Podcast to inspire and motivate those with BPD to find hope.
